About The Author, Director, & Editor of My Life
EDIT 11/1/15:
Ok what you're about to read is REAAAAALLY old. I wrote all of this at least 4 years ago. So it's gonna sound really lame and even a little pretentious??? Idk what happened to all the confidence that I seemed to have back then, cuz today I am a complete loser. But I'll leave what I have down below just for old time's sake. If you do read it, enjoy and try not to cringe.
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Most "About the Author"s are written in the third person POV, but I prefer to write it in first person. Most of you know me for my popular and hit series My Life that I have been working on for about 3 years now. I have been highly admired and praised for my skills in filming and writing, mostly on the My Life series. But that series isn't all there is to me. I'm not just good for making a series. I'm a person, too. So I just thought I'd let you guys get to know a little more about the writer, director, and editor of the stories many have come to love. (Wow, going back and reading this... I sound so modest. xD)
First things first. Obviously I love to write and film. In fact, I've starting writing since I was about 6 years old. My mother gave me some paper, stickers, a crayon or two, and told me to write something. I threw it together, and voilà! - a little packet, which she titled My First Book. I felt so proud of myself. I couldn't believe that I put those 8 pages together myself. There was no story in it really, but it was still my first book. Remember, I was around six years old at the time. Ever since then, I kept writing and writing. I would just get the most exciting thrill and excitement out of it. While my friends were out doing what normal 6 year olds do, I was inside having the time of my life writing short stories on white paper, completed with little drawings on each page. And if I wasn't doing that, I'd be out playing with my friends; always acting out stories or going on adventures. I remember we used to always play Spiderman, and oddly enough, I was Spiderman, or Peter Parker, if you will. I would play with my best friend Nicole, who was usually Mary Jane, and sometimes my older brother who would be Spiderman instead while I would be Black Cat. Hehe, they had to pretend to kiss once and I bonked their heads together so that they actually did. That's how they had their first kiss, if you would count that. Mwuahahaha. Anyway, we were so caught up in that game that one day I begged my grandmother (used to be a professional hairdresser) to cut my hair as short as a boy's hair, in order to be like Spiderman. Instead they just cut it bob, which I furiously hated. I loved my long hair that reached almost to my knees. Call me a freak, but I kept my hair in a bag. I still have it today.
Eventually, I wrote over 20 different storybooks around age 6 and/or perhaps older. I still have them somewhere, although I don't know where. In 5th grade I started writing a book called Sarah Young and Small, which was inspired by the online game Disney's Toontown Online. The title was supposed to be similar to the title of the book Sarah Plain and Tall by Patricia Maclachlan. I'd write more to it in the bus, on vacation, at school, during lunch, at home, all the time. My friend Monica thought I was silly. I don't blame her - the story wasn't very strong. It ended up being about 108 pages long, but I never finished it because I got bored with it and eventually realized how lousy it was. After that I slowly became discouraged to write, mostly because school slowly started getting tough and free time became a fantasy. All I could focus on was getting good grades and doing my hours of homework. I've always had a lot of homework. But now it's worse than ever, getting an average of 4 hours of sleep a night. Even my grades started dropping, from being an all A student to an A/B student, and err... math, well, math needs to DIE. It seems like we always have to give up something in order to excel in another thing. I gave up writing for a while in order to focus on school. Now it's the opposite. It's not fair. Curse you people who have time to excel in everything. :P
Playing with Barbies really helped me get into storytelling. I would play with my Barbies for hours on end, coming up with new stories every time. Yeah, eventually I started torturing them, too... shaved off their hair, pulled off their head, legs, arms... etc... but yeah. I've written many things in my life, but none of it seems to get finished. I come up with all these ideas but never know what to do with them. I get inspired by music, movies, TV shows, poems, sayings, pretty much anything.
What got me into filming my stories with Sims was by first watching other people's Sim videos. They were so awe-inspiring and I wanted to be able to create something just like that one day. And whattya know? Although not as good as them, I've gotten closer than ever and now I have amazing fans and supporters that love me! :'] And not just 10 or 20, but 15,000 of them!!!!
Well, that is, until I got hacked.
Remember CrystalFirexx? It was my former YouTube account. I had many videos on there, starting off with the improv story called Love Story with 3 parts to it. After I was hacked by another YouTube account called DepressedLoser11 (more commonly known as BeautyEletric), everything turned hectic. She apparently went on to hack other people, too. She did this by giving a link that sent you to a page that looks exactly like the YouTube log-in. If you type in your username and password, they get hold of it and POOF - it's all gone! I wasn't stupid enough to fall for that scam. She tricked me. I would explain how but I'd rather not. It sickens me. My new YouTube account is NatalieFirexx. Luckily some people helped back up my videos (although not in the best quality), so at least the My Life Series isn't done for.
Another thing that got me into filming series was the TV show One Tree Hill. If you watched that show back when it was still new, you could probably point out some references in my series.
What is the My Life series even about? It's still not a strong story, like most of my failed writings. It was all basically made up as I went, and I was only 13 when I started it. I started writing a script for it later on. However, people still seem to enjoy it and many say it inspires them, and even makes them cry. I can't tell you how much that means to hear.
I have more in store for you when I finish the series. But this time, it will actually have been planned ahead of time and make more sense.
I hope to become a successful writer/novelist, film director, film producer, and/or actress one day. And with your help and support, I think I can do just that.
Ok what you're about to read is REAAAAALLY old. I wrote all of this at least 4 years ago. So it's gonna sound really lame and even a little pretentious??? Idk what happened to all the confidence that I seemed to have back then, cuz today I am a complete loser. But I'll leave what I have down below just for old time's sake. If you do read it, enjoy and try not to cringe.
.....................
Most "About the Author"s are written in the third person POV, but I prefer to write it in first person. Most of you know me for my popular and hit series My Life that I have been working on for about 3 years now. I have been highly admired and praised for my skills in filming and writing, mostly on the My Life series. But that series isn't all there is to me. I'm not just good for making a series. I'm a person, too. So I just thought I'd let you guys get to know a little more about the writer, director, and editor of the stories many have come to love. (Wow, going back and reading this... I sound so modest. xD)
First things first. Obviously I love to write and film. In fact, I've starting writing since I was about 6 years old. My mother gave me some paper, stickers, a crayon or two, and told me to write something. I threw it together, and voilà! - a little packet, which she titled My First Book. I felt so proud of myself. I couldn't believe that I put those 8 pages together myself. There was no story in it really, but it was still my first book. Remember, I was around six years old at the time. Ever since then, I kept writing and writing. I would just get the most exciting thrill and excitement out of it. While my friends were out doing what normal 6 year olds do, I was inside having the time of my life writing short stories on white paper, completed with little drawings on each page. And if I wasn't doing that, I'd be out playing with my friends; always acting out stories or going on adventures. I remember we used to always play Spiderman, and oddly enough, I was Spiderman, or Peter Parker, if you will. I would play with my best friend Nicole, who was usually Mary Jane, and sometimes my older brother who would be Spiderman instead while I would be Black Cat. Hehe, they had to pretend to kiss once and I bonked their heads together so that they actually did. That's how they had their first kiss, if you would count that. Mwuahahaha. Anyway, we were so caught up in that game that one day I begged my grandmother (used to be a professional hairdresser) to cut my hair as short as a boy's hair, in order to be like Spiderman. Instead they just cut it bob, which I furiously hated. I loved my long hair that reached almost to my knees. Call me a freak, but I kept my hair in a bag. I still have it today.
Eventually, I wrote over 20 different storybooks around age 6 and/or perhaps older. I still have them somewhere, although I don't know where. In 5th grade I started writing a book called Sarah Young and Small, which was inspired by the online game Disney's Toontown Online. The title was supposed to be similar to the title of the book Sarah Plain and Tall by Patricia Maclachlan. I'd write more to it in the bus, on vacation, at school, during lunch, at home, all the time. My friend Monica thought I was silly. I don't blame her - the story wasn't very strong. It ended up being about 108 pages long, but I never finished it because I got bored with it and eventually realized how lousy it was. After that I slowly became discouraged to write, mostly because school slowly started getting tough and free time became a fantasy. All I could focus on was getting good grades and doing my hours of homework. I've always had a lot of homework. But now it's worse than ever, getting an average of 4 hours of sleep a night. Even my grades started dropping, from being an all A student to an A/B student, and err... math, well, math needs to DIE. It seems like we always have to give up something in order to excel in another thing. I gave up writing for a while in order to focus on school. Now it's the opposite. It's not fair. Curse you people who have time to excel in everything. :P
Playing with Barbies really helped me get into storytelling. I would play with my Barbies for hours on end, coming up with new stories every time. Yeah, eventually I started torturing them, too... shaved off their hair, pulled off their head, legs, arms... etc... but yeah. I've written many things in my life, but none of it seems to get finished. I come up with all these ideas but never know what to do with them. I get inspired by music, movies, TV shows, poems, sayings, pretty much anything.
What got me into filming my stories with Sims was by first watching other people's Sim videos. They were so awe-inspiring and I wanted to be able to create something just like that one day. And whattya know? Although not as good as them, I've gotten closer than ever and now I have amazing fans and supporters that love me! :'] And not just 10 or 20, but 15,000 of them!!!!
Well, that is, until I got hacked.
Remember CrystalFirexx? It was my former YouTube account. I had many videos on there, starting off with the improv story called Love Story with 3 parts to it. After I was hacked by another YouTube account called DepressedLoser11 (more commonly known as BeautyEletric), everything turned hectic. She apparently went on to hack other people, too. She did this by giving a link that sent you to a page that looks exactly like the YouTube log-in. If you type in your username and password, they get hold of it and POOF - it's all gone! I wasn't stupid enough to fall for that scam. She tricked me. I would explain how but I'd rather not. It sickens me. My new YouTube account is NatalieFirexx. Luckily some people helped back up my videos (although not in the best quality), so at least the My Life Series isn't done for.
Another thing that got me into filming series was the TV show One Tree Hill. If you watched that show back when it was still new, you could probably point out some references in my series.
What is the My Life series even about? It's still not a strong story, like most of my failed writings. It was all basically made up as I went, and I was only 13 when I started it. I started writing a script for it later on. However, people still seem to enjoy it and many say it inspires them, and even makes them cry. I can't tell you how much that means to hear.
I have more in store for you when I finish the series. But this time, it will actually have been planned ahead of time and make more sense.
I hope to become a successful writer/novelist, film director, film producer, and/or actress one day. And with your help and support, I think I can do just that.
We're All Just Shadows Anyway
That's enough about that stuff. I'm sure a lot of you already knew most of that anyway. Now it's time to learn more about ME. So get ready! :P
You see that picture right there? That picture pretty much sums up my whole life. I don't know if this is what you see, but what I see when I look at this picture is someone who is trying to be someone who they can never be. They don't fit in, no matter how hard they try. They will always look disfigured and out of place. That's me. I want to be able to fly like everyone else. But I can't. I won't accept the truth, but it's true no matter what. You might not think that makes any sense. In fact, you might not even think that picture makes sense. Another thing that represents me. Nobody ever seems to understand me. They try making up things about me, assuming that's the kind of person I am. Of course, they're always wrong. I try to show my real self and feelings on life through my writings and films, but I'm still not sure if it works. I'm a shy, innocent, goody two shoes girl who has no personality whatsoever and prefers not to talk.
Well, that's how other people view me as anyway.
But that's not who I am. I'm actually a very outgoing, rebellious girl with a colorful personality and would much rather talk instead of having to listen all the time. But people don't see that in me. I guess it's true I have to get to know a person real well before this can show, but I just hate how people think they know me. It seems the more I get to know someone, the more shy and reserved and boring I become. I want to find someone who I can actually talk to, not just listen to. Someone who understands me. Someone who likes the same things I like. Someone who knows me. But maybe, just like that photo, I really am how people view me. Maybe I tell myself I'm actually a fun and outgoing person because I want to be, but in reality I'll always be that odd, awkward object trying to flap my wings just like the rest of the flock.
You know what I realized about people? All they want is to be listened to. They don't care about what others say. It doesn't matter. Nobody's feelings and opinions in this world matter. Sure, some people say they do and nod their heads in fascination when you talk, but do they really care? Well, I don't even get a nod when I talk, actually. Just a confused or annoyed look. They accuse me of never talking but how can I when nobody is willing to listen? What's the point? We're all just damn dolls to talk to. We expect other people to just be a doll; someone you can talk to, but not have to listen to. Dolls have nothing to say. They just sit there with their pretty little eyes and listen. Their lips, are just for looks. Painted in a fine blood red or porcelain white. Glass. Plastic. Just there. For no good reason. You could think differently than me. Maybe there really is someone out there who cares about what other people say. Unless that person is someone other than me, I don't believe you, as selfish as it sounds.
You see that picture right there? That picture pretty much sums up my whole life. I don't know if this is what you see, but what I see when I look at this picture is someone who is trying to be someone who they can never be. They don't fit in, no matter how hard they try. They will always look disfigured and out of place. That's me. I want to be able to fly like everyone else. But I can't. I won't accept the truth, but it's true no matter what. You might not think that makes any sense. In fact, you might not even think that picture makes sense. Another thing that represents me. Nobody ever seems to understand me. They try making up things about me, assuming that's the kind of person I am. Of course, they're always wrong. I try to show my real self and feelings on life through my writings and films, but I'm still not sure if it works. I'm a shy, innocent, goody two shoes girl who has no personality whatsoever and prefers not to talk.
Well, that's how other people view me as anyway.
But that's not who I am. I'm actually a very outgoing, rebellious girl with a colorful personality and would much rather talk instead of having to listen all the time. But people don't see that in me. I guess it's true I have to get to know a person real well before this can show, but I just hate how people think they know me. It seems the more I get to know someone, the more shy and reserved and boring I become. I want to find someone who I can actually talk to, not just listen to. Someone who understands me. Someone who likes the same things I like. Someone who knows me. But maybe, just like that photo, I really am how people view me. Maybe I tell myself I'm actually a fun and outgoing person because I want to be, but in reality I'll always be that odd, awkward object trying to flap my wings just like the rest of the flock.
You know what I realized about people? All they want is to be listened to. They don't care about what others say. It doesn't matter. Nobody's feelings and opinions in this world matter. Sure, some people say they do and nod their heads in fascination when you talk, but do they really care? Well, I don't even get a nod when I talk, actually. Just a confused or annoyed look. They accuse me of never talking but how can I when nobody is willing to listen? What's the point? We're all just damn dolls to talk to. We expect other people to just be a doll; someone you can talk to, but not have to listen to. Dolls have nothing to say. They just sit there with their pretty little eyes and listen. Their lips, are just for looks. Painted in a fine blood red or porcelain white. Glass. Plastic. Just there. For no good reason. You could think differently than me. Maybe there really is someone out there who cares about what other people say. Unless that person is someone other than me, I don't believe you, as selfish as it sounds.
If I was a Sim, my traits would be....
Absent-Minded
I have terrible memory. My computer screen is covered with sticky notes just to remind me of projects and such LOL.
I also sometimes wonder why I'm in a room, or how I even got there.
I also sometimes wonder why I'm in a room, or how I even got there.
Adventurous
I miss being a little kid, when I would go climbing trees, explore forests at night, and believe that I was actually one of the leaders of a magical world called Nosze.
Animal Lover
I LOVE animals of all kinds. They're just so amazing and beautiful, and sometimes I think their lifestyle is better than ours. :L Too bad I don't even have any pets. -___-
Artistic
I obviously love writing, filming, and sometimes drawing. So I guess you could call me artistic. ^o^
Childish
I am definitely childish. I have over 200 stuffed animals and sometimes I still play with them. I even talk to them... Don't make fun of me. You're just jealous ;D
Commitment Issues
I am still looking forward to being married and having a nice family eventually. For my kind of commitment issues, I mean more like getting into clubs, sports, or anything that could be long term and can take away my free time. This even conflicts with dating and hanging out with friends.
Computer Whiz
Although I may not be as tech-savvy as some people, I am definitely considered a computer whiz to my friends. I learned a lot from my older brother, Nick, who is a complete computer genius. I also enjoy playing video and computer games a lot more than my friends do.
Dog Person
I love both cats and dogs, but when it comes to choosing what kind you prefer, it's definitely the dogs. Though I never had a pet before besides a hamster, I'm still pretty sure I like dogs better. :P
Easy Going
There isn't a thumbnail for this one, but I am definitely not ambitious and prefer to do nothing much in life... Hehe.
Friendly
Although I'm more of an introvert, I still make friends decently well and hate the idea of having any enemies, therefore I even try to befriend them.
Good
I guess you could consider me a good person. :P I love helping others in need, can never stay mad at someone for long, and prefer to be nice to even the meanest of people.
Loner
I am a loner for sure. Spending my weekend alone in my bedroom sounds much more exciting than hanging out with friends. Friends are often a nuisance to me. I get nervous in large groups and rarely ever start conversations. I am very socially awkward when I talk.
Loves the Outdoors
I love being outside in nature surrounded by animals, flowers, trees, etc. I prefer to spend this solitude in nature with no other humans around.
Procrastinator
No thumbnail, but I am the worst procrastinator. I put things off thinking I still have time until I realize it's 10 pm and haven't even started my homework.
Shy
Like the loner trait, I prefer to either only be with people I know well, or to not be around people at all. I'm very self-conscious and when I actually talk it's very awkward and I stutter like crazy.
Unflirty
Sometimes I unintentionally flirt with others, but when it comes to guys flirting with me, asking me out, hugging, etc., I become very shy and often awkwardly reject them.
Smiling Outside.
Smiling like a weirdo too.
Dead Inside.
My Parameters
Copy and paste the following below into your FirstPersonCamera file after deleting everything in there already if you want my parameters. ONLY DO THIS IF YOU HAVE GUNMOD'S CAMERA MOD!
# Free moving first person camera.
camera "CameraMan" CameraMan
fov (5 7 10 15 20 25 30 45 55 65 70 75 80 85 90)
clip 0.2 2000
setparam defaultminchange 0.05
setparam mouseheadingsensitivity
0.0005
setparam upperpitchlimit 92
setparam lowerpitchlimit -100
setparam orientationminchange 0.00001
setparam orientationsteps 10
setparam fovminchange 0.00001
setparam fovsteps 5
setparam
mincameraheight -15
setparam maxcameraheight 150
setparam
translationminchange 0.00001
setparam translationsteps 10
setparam
maxvelocity 3
# max vel for chorus 20
# max vel for chords 40
setparam velocitysensitivitymin 0.0001
setparam velocityminchange
0.00001
setparam velocitysteps 5
setparam ticklimit 20
setparam
constraintwidth -10
# Free moving first person camera.
camera "CameraMan" CameraMan
fov (5 7 10 15 20 25 30 45 55 65 70 75 80 85 90)
clip 0.2 2000
setparam defaultminchange 0.05
setparam mouseheadingsensitivity
0.0005
setparam upperpitchlimit 92
setparam lowerpitchlimit -100
setparam orientationminchange 0.00001
setparam orientationsteps 10
setparam fovminchange 0.00001
setparam fovsteps 5
setparam
mincameraheight -15
setparam maxcameraheight 150
setparam
translationminchange 0.00001
setparam translationsteps 10
setparam
maxvelocity 3
# max vel for chorus 20
# max vel for chords 40
setparam velocitysensitivitymin 0.0001
setparam velocityminchange
0.00001
setparam velocitysteps 5
setparam ticklimit 20
setparam
constraintwidth -10